mood

yesterday really have a very down mood cos being fucked by my father and mother.

the problem here is i'm trying pass some massage that i've received to them.

during the conversation, i'm trying to rephrase my word cos i'm not quite sure the name of some items that the people told me. some phrase is quite difficult to explain.

however, my mom thinks i'm trying to say something and hiding something, she just turn around and walk away.

i'm just trying to rephrase.... no other purpose.

then, i look at my father and pointing the direction my mom walk. then he also fuck me.
he says that stop showing my hand like this!

ok! i' m wrong now. what i'm suppose to do? i'm very lazy to explain and talk with them again.

really, sometime i think that the more i talk, the more misunderstood they will.

down in the deepest part of my heart, i told myself : becareful what i'm going to talk with them.

if can, just avoid to talk with them. totally dissapointed yesterday.

i hope i can be better today after one night sleep. however, i can't make it....

still, i wont talk with them. i don't feel like to talk with them. really.